疫情的日子

10.48pm · 星期日

自从三月头辞职后，就和父母呆在太平的家里了，原本是计算好一个星期后才回去吉隆皮的。就在三月十六日，政府公布我国行动管制从三月十八日至四月二十八日 (原本是计划好四月十四日解封的，由于Coronavirus不断地上升就延迟了)。

这好几个星期呆在家的日子还真不好受，应该是说快要发霉这样才对吧，哈哈！睡觉，看戏，打游戏，玩手机，聊天，几乎好像也没做什么特别的事了。话说回来，回看这里都已经快要生灰尘了。最后一章是2017年10月1日写的，之后就不知何时就在这里不见人影了。

今天的今天，打扫了房间后，当然房间看起来比较清洁，人也渐渐地比较清晰，能专注点。这几天也有搞些几项Zoom Sharing的活动。当然有邀请几个不是很成功，有的约好后当天却不见人影，给的理由是刚好客户打来要忙，不到0.5秒就挂电话了，过两个小时再打回去时不接电话了。第一次Online解卦也有点马虎，不过整个过程都走的挺顺利的。再邀约她参与我们的活动也几乎不理人了。

今天的今天，我有一位朋友上来听了，原本打算是说可能他吸收了一些信息。问他后他给我的反馈是老师所讲的这些都几乎很表面，不Om，外面的企业讲座也是类似这样讲怎么搞好生意。他也懂是Preview而已，他就用Trailer描述出来应该再讲一些些用风水怎么改善之类的。我再次解释了又解释，最后也回应了他：“好，谢谢你的反馈，我会告诉我的领导或老师的。” 另一边，告诉领导后这件事(虽然没解释到完)，她给我的答复是告诉他只是Preview而已，他期望太高了。接着说，老师讲得很好了，她客户也很满意。当然我也没说什么，只是默默接受以及下次注意。因为两方的立场都是没错的。

今天的今天，我跑来了这里，也不知为什么打扫完后，今天晚上来的感觉特别强，很想在这里发泄。回想起刚刚领导所说的话，我在她感受到的是肯定与相信。不懂为什么，那一瞬间感觉是这么来的。再回想起这几个星期呆在家，觉得是讲而讲，约而约，几乎是没强烈的感觉给对方一个肯定与信心。最后才导致这样吧？要拿起书读时很容易被周围物质干涉到 (还没整理房间时段)，专注不了，于是才逼自己动起手整理房间干干净净，杂物放在外。

回想很多事情反反复复，我认为我现在调整的心态是要学会“专注再专注”。这是我认为应该要做的，做好这一次，再看看下一步怎么样。

Keep stuck, Stop ! Argh!

I failed to achieve the goal again. What a day…This two weeks had been kept doing survey and failed and survey and failed. Sometimes I got fed up how hard it is.

I had a very serious discussion with my senior last night. Along the discussion, my senior just told my weaknesses and ask some few questions. I was going to drown on that night. He told me I need to breakthrough the goal. Most importantly is breakthrough myself. There’s a lot need to be learn – I told to myself. “Why XXXXX?” A serious question that affect my future life was. He told me that I need to do a research by myself. Improve my product knowledge. I had to admit, I always kept blindly to follow the instruction and whatever they say. I also having a short chat with my mum. I shared my feeling and yesterday night discussion with my mum. My mum also further explain to me. On that time, I just realize clearly that, my mum not worried what I’m doing right now but worried what I blindly follow. Somehow I felt so down on the bus today and kept rewind about myself.

Well from now on, October! I promise to myself, I had to change my bad habits. I had to breakthrough myself and achieve the goal!

Loading…Work!

Well, had been so much interviews and finally the company offers me a job! I was like ahhh finally~ Marketing Admin position. Next Tuesday gonna to work soon! And still, need to improve my Adobe Photoshop and Adobe Premier Pro as the company needed it. Hopefully I will be happy and enjoy this job for 1 year…Chao!

Practical Photoshop

Well, today I was watching the Photoshop tutorial beginner from Youtube as I wanted to learn how to edit the photo effectively. It tooks half day for me to watch and doing practical Photoshop by my own.

Right now, I was able to change the interface of the photo, set some effects of the panel, add some text and also crop the photos. Also, the tutorial 2 teaches me on how to use the layer masks, lighting effects and using filters on photo.

Long time ago, I did some very simple editing on selfie photo by using very old version Photoshop and the other software called Meitu Xiuxiu since I was studying in Form 1 to Form 3 that time. After that, one of the college Degree called Web-Based Multimedia for Marketing had learn how to use Adobe Flash CS3 Professional which also an old version too. Maybe that’s why it is not so hard for me to learn on Photoshop. It just need some time to familiar the function of the Photoshop and get used to it until professional in editing photo.

August 10

Yep, getting better now! Morning just went for interview.

Afternoon bring my friend went to Melawati Mall and just saw a cat was at the tiang there. There was a few maintenance staffs were at there and the manager was calling for ambulance to save the cat. Hmm, just wondering how’s the “spidercat” went there even though there’s no way went through over the tiang. After that, I brought two pants as I know that I don’t have enough pants in my hostel and yea…before that we just saw a friend who was working at hair saloon. 1 person RM48 for hair cut and wash ! WeW.. I should be know that hair saloon in the mall is quite expensive as the rental fees could be quite high. Meanwhile, I bring my friend to Setapak Sentral. He took his long pants and gave the Parkson staff for cutting.

After came back, I was slept instead. “Miao…Miao….” the ringtone rang. I heard the phone calls, I was wake up from the dreams. Luckily my phone didn’t set in silent mode. The human resource staff called me went for interview on Friday.

Sick and Sick(8月8日)

Damn I shouldn’t eat Thailand food today. Now fall sick and it’s going to fever, feel so cool. Luckily just eat Panadol Soluble and getting sweat on the bed. Feeling well right now. Please faster get well soon tomorrow still got another interview.

PS: GG Redone’s line got problem during my phone interview.

距离的边界 / 理念的一线之差

“这个团已不再是以前的团了”

“这个团一年比一年还惨”

这个词你会听起来很熟悉吗？那么多年来参加那么多社团这个词我听了好多次。要么团真的是落后，要么就是继续创新。一个人不懂得改变他的观念永远会觉得这个团一年比一年还要惨。

我看过一篇文章，我觉得很有意思。如果新一届筹委上任之后团落后，之前已下任的学长的能力或许是很强，他总是认为新上任学弟学妹的所做的东西没比上一届来的好。很遗憾，以下任的学长从没想过自己一个问题，他的能力再好能领导整个团队但却没培养或培养不了一个新上任的学弟学妹。一是不会寻求一个目标去发展，二来是逃避现实。一个团要继续前进其中一个方法就是世面看得多，了解团的宗旨。这样一来整个团才能维持下去。一个人观念太死板，迟早有一天会被这个世纪淘汰。

从中学到大学本人都很热爱参加社团，参了各种各样的社团，认识了好多不同的朋友。当然我们也该明白一件事情，聚在一起总会有离开的一天。因团而认识了彼此，因缘而在一起疯癫疯狂过，缘一尽了，我们都各自奔向自己的目标前进。

自从大学毕业后，我也开始踏入社会了。每当我回到社团时，我渐渐发现，已不再是那曾经加入社团熟悉的味道了。我想想回去其他曾参加的社团，也只能默默地否认接受这个事实。对，团应该要继续成长而不是停留，继续创新而不是保留原状。那么有想过自己吗？我一直总是想啊回到那熟悉的味道，我好怀念以前，好想回到那团里和他们混。如果能再继续和他们一起培养团一起成长那该多好不是吗？毕竟我热爱社团，但弱问自己你能为团付出那自己呢？我曾思考了这个疑问很久了，我想了下，我们应该先为自己的将来梦想打算。如果我们追求梦想哪天成功了再回来团分享你的经历不久好吗？不止为自己将来打算，也启发学弟学妹们的梦想啊！

说了那么多这应该满算是很沉重的一篇文章吧？但其实我最主要想表达的我们应该要勇于面对事实。

路途上很艰难，但我们还是继续改向前走。中学大学到踏入社会就那一线之差，只是一个区区不同的边界一足够让我们的生活变化很大。趋势改变得快，我们也不能继续保留现在的自己，要懂得改变自己朝梦想向前去，我们就只活那么一次，找回属于自己的梦想，一口气追求自己的梦想吧！

谢谢你们陪着我一起在团体度过不论是好是坏，那都是我们曾最美好的回忆。

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